Let me hear of your steadfast love in the morning, for in you I put my trust. Teach me the way I should go.  Psalm 143:8

Sometimes we try to act as if we are God. We begin to believe we can control our world and what goes on in it. By that I mean we let our vanity and ego take over our thoughts and actions. Sometimes it takes a major change in our lives for us to realize we are not in control. A death in the family, a divorce, or a serious illness shakes us loose from our delusion of power.  For me it was that I had given myself credit for my accomplishments: being able to graduate from college, obtaining a good job, buying a home. But I learned during my illness that I am not in control and that only by letting go and accepting God’s guidance would I truly be a disciple of Christ. I made the decision to live that way, and I now give God praise and credit for my accomplishments.  Life has new meaning for me. I still fall back into my old ways, but I don’t stay there long. My daily reading and time in prayer, giving thanks and seeking God’s will, allow me to “let go” again. I don’t have to try to control the world any longer. I leave that to God.